1st time shame on you, second time shame on me!

Well, it lasted about 2 months and the relationship is over! I kicked him out and this time it is for good.
We seemed to be doing good or at least I thought.
Next week is Thanksgiving and he decided to go up to see his daughter for the weekend. I thought it seemed kind of funny as to why he wouldn't just fly her up here to see him and his family and save himself $150 from having to rent himself a car but whatever.
He bowls on Friday's and so I usually go down and watch him. We were going to get a bite to eat and then go out for a few drinks but instead thought it would be best just to stay home since my son had a basketball tournament in Yerington all weekend.
He took us out to get something to eat and then we went back to my house. After we ate he fell asleep. Shortly after I decided to go through his text messages in his cell phone. I know stupid me but I still didn't have 100% trust in him. Well low a behold guess what I found? Yep you guessed it, I found text messages from his ex-wife and text messages from him to his ex. They were not good ones. Basically, him asking if he needed to get a motel room for them to hang out in and him asking if they were going to hang out and talk and that they didn't even have to have sex. There was also one from him asking her when she was going to send him nasty pictures of her to him. I was furious!!!! All I could see was RED!!!! So, I barged into the room and told him to get up and the "F" out of my house and that I didn't want to see him ever again. He didn't know what was going on. I showed him the messages that I had found. I couldn't believe he could do that 2 months after getting back together. Let me remind you that he was the one who wanted to give it one more chance. I am done. He has stepped on me for the last time. He kept telling me they were harmless conversations and that I was reading way too much into them. I told him there obviously has to be some sort of feelings behind it and I was not going to stand around and let him play me like a fool.
I am once again am devastated but know I will recover and be back om my feet in no time. I kind of figured something like this would happen. I just had hoped my gut would be lying.
Holy moly, what is wrong with guys? Did he really think I was that dumb? Um, I don't think so buddy. He can have that nasty person. The sad thing is she is in a relationship and the poor guy has no idea of what is going on behind his back. All I know is I am now down with his lying, deceiving ass and was not going to deal with it ever again.

Taking it slow

It has been over 2 months since my bf and I have split up. It took me a month and a half to get over the hurt I endeared. I finally was able to move into my own place after living with my sister for 2 months and I have to tell you I missed being on my own.
I was in my own place for a week before the ex called and said I am moving out this weekend and I ran across some of your boxes and wanted to let you know so you can pick them up. He said I will be here all day, so if you want to stop by and get them. I said okay and hung up. After I was done moving in my own place I decided to go by his place and get my stuff. I was pretty nervous. I pulled up to the house and knocked on the door. No one answered. I was pretty relieved. I started walking back to my car when I thought...hmmm I wonder if the garage code still works, so I tried it and sure enough it worked. I opened the garage to get my stuff loaded it in my car and took off quick before he pulled up. I have to say I was so happy I didn't have to see him.
That following evening my friend and I decided to go out. We went to a bar called Decades had a beer and left because it was boring. Then we went to this other bar called Toads and played some pool and hung out for a couple hours. I ended up losing to this guy in pool. He then started acting like he was Mr. Big Shot and yelling at me that he kicked my ass. I was like whatever it is just a game. I then decided to leave cause the guy was a real prick. My friend and I decided to go back to Decades to chill for one more beer before she had to go home and babysit her nephew. While we were there and about to head out the door guess who walked in? Yep, the ex bf. He started walking up to me and said Hi. I didn't say a word and walked out.
The next day he ended up sending me a text that said Hi, How are you? It was really good seeing you the other night even if we didn't get to talk or anything. If I called you would you talk to me or do you really hate me that much an want nothing to do with me. I didn't respond.
The following week I kept receiving phone calls from the ex bf and I kept denying the calls. Finally he left a message and said he was wondering if I would call him back because he had a few things to ask me. I called him back and he said I really need to talk to you and can we get together to talk. I said I wasn't ready and was still pretty bitter about how he treated me. After thinking about it I decided to call him back and ask him what exactly he needed to talk about and he said he missed me and he was having a hard time functioning and wanted to talk to me to apologize and talk about some things that had happened between us. I agreed to see him but didn't know when. I said maybe next weekend and he said the sooner the better cause he wasn't doing to well. I finally agreed to see him the following Friday at the park.
We met on Friday and did a lot of talking. I wrote a list of issues I really needed to address. At this point I didn't care what was said, as far as I was concerned the relationship was already over. He basically said he wanted to get back together and go to couples counseling. He said he is willing to do whatever it takes to get back together and he thinks if I do agree to work on our relationship that it will be stronger than ever. I told him, he is going to have to work hard and prove to me that he can be a better person and he agreed. I didn't make any promises but I said we will take it S-L-O-W and live our separate lives but still talk and hang out. I made him promise he would spend more time with my son alone and he happily agreed.
So, to make a extremely long story short. We are talking once again and I told him this is the last chance I am going to give him. No more close relationship with his ex, no more procrastinating, no more being lazy, he has to treat my son the same way he treats his daughter and his 2 step kids, no more indecisive behavior and if this is what he wants he is going to have to work really hard to prove it to me. If we do work things out he cannot make decisions that affect the both of us without talking to me. I explained to him that I am not going to take care of him anymore nor am I going to stop living my life. I am going to do what I want, when I want.

Need less to say, I felt like an idiot for agreeing to work on things with him but still care very much for him and want to see if he is sincere about the whole thing. I just need to stay strong and keep my guard up.
We will see in time how this pans out.

I've been tagged...


Accent – Unsure

I Don't Drink – Prune juice

Chore I Hate – Cleaning toilets

Pets – No

Essential Electronic – Cell phone and digital camera

Perfume/Cologne – Hypnose Perfume

Gold or silver – Gold

Insomnia – No

Job Title – Portfolio Management Support

Most Admired Trait – Hair not the grey ones though

Kids – One son

Religion – Catholic

Siblings – Older sister and older brother, I am the youngest

Time I wake up – 5:20

Unusual talent/skill – Drinking

Vegetable I refuse to eat – Peas

Worst habit – Cussing

X-rays – Arm, stomach and head

My favorite meal – Steak, lobster and creamed spinach

I’M TAGGING - Amanda, Nancy, Brianna

Do I get to move in or not?

I have been living with my sister since the first week in July. Since then I have found a two bedroom apartment with a 2 car garage it is brand spanking new. They just built the apartments and it is small but perfect for my son and I. It will do for now.
Well, when I first signed the lease it was mid-July and I couldn't wait to move in. The property manager let me move all of my belongings into the garage which saved me from having to pay for storage. The property manger didn't want me to move in just yet she needed the power company to fix something on the circuit breaker box and so she wanted me to wait a week to move in. I was perfectly fine with it. After a week I called the property manager and asked if I could move in and she said the City has issues with the drainage on the street and they wouldn't allow my to move in until it was fixed. I said no problem as long as it has nothing to do with the actual apartment. I have been calling her every week since and am still staying with my sister because the work has still not been completed.
I finally called her and explained to her that if I could not move in by the end of the week, I was going to start looking for another place to live. She called me back and said that she has posted a bond to get the work done and hired a engineer to provide an estimate. She said that she spoke to the City and they agreed to let me move in by the end of the week if not the beginning of next, as long as the property manager did her part, which she claims to have done. Hopefully if everything goes the way it should I will be living in my new place come Monday.
I hated for my son to start his first week of school living at my sisters. I had to inconvenience my sister once again to take my son to his bus stop because I work at 6 in the morning and was unable to. She said she didn't mind but I did.
My sister has done so much for me the past couple of months I have decided that when I get my deposit from the old house I am going to buy her and her husband some steaks and crab legs so they can have a nice dinner for two. I owe her my life for putting up with my son and I for almost 2 months. She is the best sister a girl could ask for. Thanks for everything sis. I love you!

Men who needs them!!!!

So,three weeks ago my boyfriend and I split up after almost 5 years. I cannot believe what an ass he turned out to be. He explained that he no longer wanted to be with me because of my attitude. I agreed I had been very unbearable to live with and advised him I wanted to go to counseling and that I loved him and wanted to salvage the relationship. He couldn't promise me that he would still want to be with me after counseling. We contemplated a trial separation where I would leave the house but leave all my belongings there. Everything in the house is mine and I didn't like the thought of leaving all my stuff there for him to use while I was out of the house with nothing. So, the more I thought about it the more I just wanted to get my stuff and get my own place. Why should I have to work on the relationship alone. I knew now that I needed to be alone for the sake of myself and my son.
Before I met him I was happily single and loving it. I had just came out of a terrible 9 year relationship and was not looking for another commitment. I did what I wanted whenever I wanted. It was great.
I bowled on a league and he just happened to want to bowl with us. He was definitely not my type and I didn't want to date him. He was very persistent and kept asking me out for drinks. I of course kept turning him down. He started asking my family about me and I eventually ended up going out for drinks with my family and he just happened to be at the same bar we went to. We started talking and he ended up asking me out for dinner. I accepted and one thing led to another and we became inseparable. We got a long so well and had lots of fun together.
Anyways, he turned out to someone I didn't know at all. He has put me through so many terrible things and I am not quite sure why I stayed with him. When we first met I believed he was legally separated and come to find out that was a lie and that he was still sleeping with his wife. When his wife figured that he wasn't going to leave me and go back to her she confronted me and told me everything. I was devastated and wanted to end it right then and there but he cried and begged for me to forgive him and said he would never do it again. I like a dumb ass forgave him.
Then he was having a huge problem with the fact that his daughter was growing up without him and so he flew up to Washington to visit her and decided he couldn't leave her and decided to quit his job and stay up there. After a month he decided he couldn't live without me and asked to come back (TALK ABOUT SCREWED UP AND CONFUSED). I said okay.
After a couple months of him being back his crazy wife filed for divorce. She also, claimed that she was pregnant with his child from the month that he was up there. He swore she was lying and that he had never slept with her. He asked her to provide proof and so she sent him a piece of paper from a Doctor's office verifying the pregnancy. He still swore it wasn't his. After she realized that he was not going to run back to her she claimed that she had a STD and that he gave it to her. We both got checked and were clean. After, he told her we were both free and clear of any STD she claimed that she lost the baby due to the STD and left us alone for a while.
Since then she has finally met another idiot to be with and they have been going strong for about 2 years. They have just purchased a half a million dollar house and seem to be happy. Who knows!
Well, for the past 3 years we have been taking his daughter and her 2 other kids for the summers and I am sure she loves that fact that he is wrapped tightly around her nipple. This year is no exception. She drove down last night to bring her oldest daughter. I had this terrible feeling that since she was going to be driving 12 hours from Washington state that she would end up spending the night at his house. I have had the worst anxiety thinking about all of this. I woke up this morning and on my way to work just felt the need to drive by and see if my guts were right and sure enough that bitch was parked in front. I wanted to scream! What the hell! How could he do this. I guess, it took me a while to see what a bastard he really is. I should have just stuck to my guns and left him when his wife confronted me. She will always be his wife as far as I am concerned. Those losers deserve each other. If anything he is the one who needs help not me.

Can you say CHAOS?
I have been training for me new job for a couple months now. There is a lot to learn.
Well, on top of my new job duties I have been shadowing with a girl named Shawna to learn her job because she is pregnant and I will be having to take over her tasks while she is gone on maternity leave for 2 1/2 months.
Guess who ended up having her baby early? Yep, Shawna. She went in for a C section last Wednesday and I have been on my own trying to keep her duties up to date. She had a beautiful baby boy. He is so adorable.
I am stressing out and very much overwhelmed. We are on a bonus structure here at work and if every one does there part then we are eligible for bonus. It ranges anywhere from $350 to $750 additional a month. Nevertheless, I do not want to be the one that is to blame for not meeting our bonus goals.
Don't get me wrong I love my new job and enjoy staying busy but am not yet up to speed with all my daily tasks. I will keep you posted on how my first month on my own goes.

You scored as Yellow. Your heart is yellow. You are very fun loving and you\'re the life and soul of the party. Some people may call you childish, but they\'re boring fuckers and should be shot! Be happy to be happy and don\'t change for anyone. Oh wow, I'm very proud of you *sniffles*. This is my first quiz so bite me... Yellow 79% Blue 71% Pink 71% Red 64% Green 57% Purple 46% Black 46% Orange 39% White 25% ~What colour is your heart?~ created with QuizFarm.com